Ebamäärane plaan on saada eikellekski.

Mul on nii raske. Mu hing valutab ja südames on ränk piin. Mõistus ei taha mulle vahel alluda. Ja see kõik on mu nõmeda õe pärast. Puberteet, raisk. No, ma ei tea, kuidas saab üks inimene nii mõistuseta, naiivne ja tundetu olla? Ta ei kuula mitte kellegi sõna, absull mitte kellegi. Ta peas ei eksisteeri sõna ,,Ei". Mul on närvid läbi, koolis on niimoodi väga raske käia. Mõte, et kodus pole kõik korras, ajab mind hulluks. Peamine on see, et ema ei peaks kannatama.. Tal on tööl niigi raske. Ta tuleb õhtul koju, tahab puhata, kuid peab ikka selle jorsiga õiendama, et mõistus koju tuleks. Nii palju talle puhkamist ja rahu siis... Väga nõme ja raske on tunnistada, et ma pean valama pisaraid oma rumala, puberteedi-ealise õe pärast. Palluuuun, tehke midagi, et tal mõistus pähe tagasi tuleks... :'/
Olgu, halasin. Sisimas halan ikka. Aga mis sest, kes sellest ikka hoolib eksole.



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All That Remains - Hold On

Don't touch me I don't wanna feel your skin
I know that you're only gonna hurt me
I hear you, I don't wanna do it again
'Cause we both know this is not a passing... TREND!

All along a failure to connect and to compromise,
Right or wrong, it's easy to react, time to realize... NO MORE!

And you keep talking but we both know it's not true
I still know, that you're wrong
And no matter what we both have to got through
I just can't, I can't Hold on...

I can't hold on... (I can't hold on! )
(We cannot waste our lives this way)
How far we fallen when the road before us leads apart...

And you keep talking but we know that it's not true
I still know (I still know) that you're wrong (that you're wrong)
And no matter what we both have to go through
I just can't, I can't hold on
And when you asked if I belive and I told you
Strange how that (strange how that) made me strong (me strong)
But I can't feel a thing that I used to
And I can't, I can't hold on...

Come get some!

(Solo)

There is nothing more to say...
God will strike his guilty way...
We came so far now runs away...
There is nothing more... to say!

And you keep talking but we know that it's not true
I still know (I still know) that you're wrong (that you're wrong)
And no matter what we both have to go through
I just can't, I can't hold on
And when you asked if I belive and I told you
Strange how that (strange how that) made me strong (me strong)
But I can't feel a thing that I used to
And I can't, I can't hold on...

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Mu praegune lemmik siis.

Henry, tead, et Sina oled praegu mu kõige suurem toetaja. Aitäh Sulle. Sa oled nii kallis. Ja veel midagi: anna andeks, et ma koguaeg halan ja virisen. Ma loodan, et ikka kannatad mu välja noil hetkeil. Ja tebja ljublju. *hug*

Tšao.
M.